its hurts the most when closest....

its hard to express my feelings right now... on one hand i wish i could just openly say what i need to but on the other its better not to....

expectations are mounting higher with no light in sight... how do i go on from here? i am supportive of others but yet no one supports me... it's only harder when people around me are already difficult to support. i gave my all and all i had in return is an obstacle harder to clear, a mountain too high to climb, a sky too far to reach.

2 weeks before it was a stressful one... the week after got written off... now its hurting most when the closest to you gave you an ultimatum...

i need to re-route all this hurt and anger to positive energy... my heart hurts and mind confused... nothing seems to be lasting... today i finally know... being practical is the only way.... if anyone is reading this....nothing wins money.... not even love... not even kindness...

prayers: for direction

waiting: for you dear

hurts....

its really frustrating at times....this week has been a bad week no doubt...

i guess i'm written off so badly by others i treat with respect, and am feeling sadden by it....

however so....i must persevere.... not just for my own sake but for my family and a very very special other half....

prayers: for pau & richmond
waiting: for directions

a prayer

hey bro,

am saying a little prayer here for you.... i do hope all the problems you faced will be uplifted to GOD and be taken away... let HIM give you rest from all the problems you face...

we will be there for you as always and hopefully you can share and open up your fears and anxiety to us let us share your problems with you and make it all better

your brother in christ richmond.....

multiple streams of income....

so right now am seated beside pau trying to get our hands on something big... =)

bbq?

yeah this coming friday bbq session! not too sure if it will happen though...but thanks to paul we will plan one!

yippie! now let's see