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Saturday, July 31, 2004
War Zone
my restless heart and mind is at war. depression and anxiety sweeping at me so fast i can't stop to catch my breathe and to hold on to what is sane. prayers of faith is keeping me alive, books are keeping me occupied as tears flow down my cheeks. just concluded that i'm officially depressed. after all my time as a counsellor for fellow peers, i have finally broken down. crushed under sheer pressure of burden and heartbreaks. at this tender young age of 23, my emotions are in a disarray. have to break out of this soon, using my own will power and strength.
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Lucky Stars
hmmm its a low key event for this...4 of us took the car out for a spin, headed off to loy yang power station to watch the lights...quite spectacular, but on the way home...hmmmm....we nearly got into a head on collision with another car....we are driving smoothly on the road, when all of the sudden just 20 metres ahead this old red sports car came out of the side road only to stop half way onto the road we were heading towards...the driver must be speeding or drunk and didnt stop properly...both our car and the car behind had to swerve off to our opposite lanes (thank god there was no car on coming, if not it would have been disastrous) and carried on our journey back home....oh man...
me being nervous only had to say this to the passengers, "sorry for the slight turbulence experienced..."
one of them replied, "no worries, its the safest drives i have had..." timely compliment i hope...to calm that nervous soul of mine, already being so 'rojak' at the moment....
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Books
probably the day turn out to be funny things happening...was about to borrow the heap of marketing books with Stacey, when the librarian had this to say to us...."doing some light readings hey?...." aiks...hahaha we were like carrying 9 books each...hahaha and most of them are thick heavy marketing books!! how embarrassing but funny...
then whilst walking off to the cars, Stacey remembered how our marketing lecturer once told us to borrow as much as we can...coz we paid fees already!...hahahaha =)
was wondering am i too kiasu or just plain too nerd? hahahaha
my restless heart and mind is at war. depression and anxiety sweeping at me so fast i can't stop to catch my breathe and to hold on to what is sane. prayers of faith is keeping me alive, books are keeping me occupied as tears flow down my cheeks. just concluded that i'm officially depressed. after all my time as a counsellor for fellow peers, i have finally broken down. crushed under sheer pressure of burden and heartbreaks. at this tender young age of 23, my emotions are in a disarray. have to break out of this soon, using my own will power and strength.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lucky Stars
hmmm its a low key event for this...4 of us took the car out for a spin, headed off to loy yang power station to watch the lights...quite spectacular, but on the way home...hmmmm....we nearly got into a head on collision with another car....we are driving smoothly on the road, when all of the sudden just 20 metres ahead this old red sports car came out of the side road only to stop half way onto the road we were heading towards...the driver must be speeding or drunk and didnt stop properly...both our car and the car behind had to swerve off to our opposite lanes (thank god there was no car on coming, if not it would have been disastrous) and carried on our journey back home....oh man...
me being nervous only had to say this to the passengers, "sorry for the slight turbulence experienced..."
one of them replied, "no worries, its the safest drives i have had..." timely compliment i hope...to calm that nervous soul of mine, already being so 'rojak' at the moment....
~~~~~~~~
Books
probably the day turn out to be funny things happening...was about to borrow the heap of marketing books with Stacey, when the librarian had this to say to us...."doing some light readings hey?...." aiks...hahaha we were like carrying 9 books each...hahaha and most of them are thick heavy marketing books!! how embarrassing but funny...
then whilst walking off to the cars, Stacey remembered how our marketing lecturer once told us to borrow as much as we can...coz we paid fees already!...hahahaha =)
was wondering am i too kiasu or just plain too nerd? hahahaha
Poem
inspired by the lyrics of 桲集褽
Something came in between usㄛ
Taking away the love we sharedㄛ
Leaving behind only tearsㄛ
Even if it was a mistakeㄛ
Even if you regrettedㄛ
You didn't want me to follow﹝
Even if I lovedㄛ
Twice as muchㄛ
Twice as hardㄛ
Prayed that muchㄛ
Nothing will change﹝
遜眕峈眒冪佽疑賸ㄛ
扂蠅珨れ贗薯ㄛ 扂植懂羶衄輒疶 ㄛ
淩腔竭眈陓ㄛ 祥奪嗣堈腔擒燭 ㄛ
扂蠅飲褫眕珨祭珨祭腔諉輪 ㄛ
楷汜賸妦繫岈�藥蒪騔晰齪�
祥岆佽疑賸ㄛ善堈源藏俴ㄛ
善蹕鎮ㄛ 匙燮ㄛ 臟埮ㄛ
艘岍賜衄嗣湮 岆扂蠅腔埮隅
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didn't realise his songs had the feelings i wanna portray. it seems coincidental that he released his album now, and spoke of the things happening between me and you. i'm not too sure what to do from now on, only time will tell. let me bring away all your unhappiness and pain. i'm stepping back, stepping aside. so smile gal, thats what i wanna see and that you remain happy, with or without me. i wanna see those eyes sparkle, those dimples and megawatt smile coming back into your life.
barrage of comments have floored me, no more determination, no more fighting spirit, no more will, no more faith in what i believed, love is something i said to you, i will fight for and defend it at all cost, coz its what i believed, now its a forgotten past as i drown under endless pressure.
like a phoenix, i will burn and turn into ashes, but will rise again eventually.
~~~~~~~~~
my future hangs in the balance, on one single event, will i stay or return home, depends on the outcome of that one event. life have been cruel and kind to me, but its all good.
inspired by the lyrics of 桲集褽
Something came in between usㄛ
Taking away the love we sharedㄛ
Leaving behind only tearsㄛ
Even if it was a mistakeㄛ
Even if you regrettedㄛ
You didn't want me to follow﹝
Even if I lovedㄛ
Twice as muchㄛ
Twice as hardㄛ
Prayed that muchㄛ
Nothing will change﹝
遜眕峈眒冪佽疑賸ㄛ
扂蠅珨れ贗薯ㄛ 扂植懂羶衄輒疶 ㄛ
淩腔竭眈陓ㄛ 祥奪嗣堈腔擒燭 ㄛ
扂蠅飲褫眕珨祭珨祭腔諉輪 ㄛ
楷汜賸妦繫岈�藥蒪騔晰齪�
祥岆佽疑賸ㄛ善堈源藏俴ㄛ
善蹕鎮ㄛ 匙燮ㄛ 臟埮ㄛ
艘岍賜衄嗣湮 岆扂蠅腔埮隅
~~~~~~~~~~~
didn't realise his songs had the feelings i wanna portray. it seems coincidental that he released his album now, and spoke of the things happening between me and you. i'm not too sure what to do from now on, only time will tell. let me bring away all your unhappiness and pain. i'm stepping back, stepping aside. so smile gal, thats what i wanna see and that you remain happy, with or without me. i wanna see those eyes sparkle, those dimples and megawatt smile coming back into your life.
barrage of comments have floored me, no more determination, no more fighting spirit, no more will, no more faith in what i believed, love is something i said to you, i will fight for and defend it at all cost, coz its what i believed, now its a forgotten past as i drown under endless pressure.
like a phoenix, i will burn and turn into ashes, but will rise again eventually.
~~~~~~~~~
my future hangs in the balance, on one single event, will i stay or return home, depends on the outcome of that one event. life have been cruel and kind to me, but its all good.
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