hohoho finally today i got a well deserved rest for the whole day. had the chance to have dinner with yan chyuan and yan yan at home too. only zyan was missing from the dinner table otherwise all of us would be having our first home cooked dinner together. well today's weather forecast is at 9 degrees celcius for tonite. so its going to be a cool cold nite. plus i'm alittle feverish and sick from the whole week of orientation, tonight looks like a shivering cold night for me hahaha...... hmmm wonder what school will be like tomolo? haha
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personal thoughts:
hmmm i'm already missing my whole family and especially some of my closer friends.

thursday 26th feb:
another busy day for us. had the dinner for ISA mingling session..but it should have been known as tea rather than dinner. had alot of dissappointed faces when they knew there was not enough food. haha but that to me was a good sign coz the turn out was bigger than we expected. we thought 50 pple will turn up but ended up 80 over were there i roughly estimate. kinda give me a sense of accomplishment and that all the hard work the team has put in over the past 1 wk and for the whole of last sem is coming to bear fruits. but i know we can't rest on our laurels. there is so much more to do. but everyone in the team i know has their own agenda this year. all of us are tired from doing so much yet the regconition is so low. i'm feeling guilty and frustrated that i cannot do much to help alleviate this thoughts from them. probably as their 'leader' i gotta motivate them, but i'm finding it harder to persuade them now.

friday 27th feb:
the biggest event for all intnl students probably is held today. the monash intnl festival or otherwise known to us as big day out. what started off as great anticipation for things to come, ended up up in such big dissappointment. the planning for the event was in such horrendous state i dunno what to say. they had the event held in caufield which was totally wrong. alot of the students ended up going off or wandered around to the nearby town areas. the meaning of the whole event was lost. as expected many of the students were too cool or shy or found it otherwise lame, sitting by the side or going off. i have seen this every semester's orientation. though i'm not too surprise by their actions i was kinda feeling sad that our gippsland campus was not very enthusiastic. even my volunteers were not showing the kind of enthusiasm. probably we had come a long way, all are tired. but still. when i see the volunteers from caufield or clayton giving their hearts out to make it a great day, i can't help but feel envious. maybe i should transfer to clayton to finish up my course. :( for me, i know i want to carry on and do a good job this semester for ISA before handing over to someone else. coz i know i cannot just leave it as it is now. we still need to be involved and get pple into the committee. if everyone in the committee is tired and sick of it. can u imagine how much zyan n myself have done and contributed to ISA. we are the longest serving exco if we were to count this semester also. no one in gippsland is willing to take up this challenge. will it be the end of intnl students rights? who will stand up for us? i need to drive this across to everyone before i leave. if we fail this sem, i alone should take the blame for not doing a good job and not my team, coz the 'leader' is responsible for the action of his team.

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personal thoughts:
sheessh its already saturday and i have not got a single nights rest that is complete since arriving. its been work work work. i have taken ill already and its not that bad though. but right now i'm in school updating this blog. i dunno what to do now. its like i have things to do but i don't wish to do. kinda sucky feeling. probably i need more rest. if only someone can take over the thinking for me.....

Wednesday 25th February:
what a week it has been. orientation week took out most of my already tight time schedule. worst of all i didnt get the chance to do some unpacking of my luggages and clean up my room. had a wacky day today itself. first off was a super long last minute student union board meeting that lasted 2 n the half hours...oh man my eyes were tearing at the end of it from exhaustion. pretty much of the meeting was more like for the entire year stuff. after that had to help out in setting up the flag ceremonial dinner. goodness i can't imagine we all did that. luckily for me i had really great buddies to assist me. its been a real pleasure n honour to have work amongst the most enthusiastic bunch of pple. had to prepare for the dinner myself, dress up and stuff for the big evening. craps...didnt have much time and zooom i was there having dinner with the new students. didnt had time to prepare my speech and i was such a nervous wreck. haha shivering all the way from head to toe. the best part was;

(i was arriving at the binishell, saw Julie from MI)
R: how are you, looking good.
J: richmond you are looking nervous.
R: oh great now u making me nervous.

sheesh haha i was even more nervous with that sentence from her. but no doubt i enjoyed that evening mingling with all the pple.
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personal thoughts:

i thought orientation have been great fun. i did missed mine back then. so probably this is punishment???
anyway i really wished that my present committee in ISA would stay together at least for this semester or even the whole year and really make a huge impact on this campus. i know i cannot persuade them to stay but hopefully i can encourage them to push themselves to the limit. the experience we have got has been a great one indeed. in fact me serving in ISA has been long... 3 semesters now... hopefully i really hope someday this association will be as good as the ones i already have heard in other campuses or unis.

its another chapter, another day gone. what a weekend it has been. unpacking my stuff at my new place, cleaning up the place, and of course getting lots of sleep. had a day of orientation today, though it was kinda messy but fun. had the chance to meet new pple and of course some familiar faces. pretty much a tiring day too, had offered to help out stacey and samantha to move their stuff for them, and helped samson shift back to west 42. missing amongst the group was our dear zyan who was in the city looking after his sis. yan chyuan had fallen ill too at this time. i'm really tired right now, but somehow the work is already starting to pile up on me. just a sketchy picture of what i'm going to do is, tuesday- find students for flag ceremony assist in new arriving students and have ISA meeting. wednesday- formal dinner with the intl students plus i gotta prepare my speech for it. thursday- we have all the talks on ISA and our dinner and i got my student union board meeting. friday- i'm involved in the big day out. so with all this in my path right now, i think my only chance of really unpacking and settling down at my new place gotta wait til the coming wkend. hmmmm i already miss being back in singapore. haha i guess thats the part i also hate most.
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wanted to update the blog everyday but somehow without internet its kinda difficult. so i probably will do it every 2 days or once i get my own internet connection. right now i'm in samson's place on-campus using the sch's wireless haha.

today is saturday 21s of feb. loggin in to bloggers at the sch comp. becoz we still dont have our own internet service in the house yet. probably it will take another 2 wks or so before everything is settled down. but for now i will try to update as much as i can. over the friday and of today, had the chance to pack up the house with sugandi. and boy its making my really tired but fun. and man my room will be so comfy in no time. wonder when the rest of them will arrive. but hey what the heck hahaha. now i only can think of eating....haha its nearly lunch time also for me. hungry boy cannot think. kinda miss the busy life of singapore and the food that is really available there round the clock to eat. i know over here in australia there are places like these, but then its not really cheap and not really great to eat. its the same stuff...fish n chips...hot dogs and burgers...yucks!!! i want to eat oyster omelette lah, drink a big glass of sugar cane juice and probably finish up a plate of char kway teow too....hahaha anyways tonite i think the rest of them should be back already and the house should be quite noisy and packed. coz it will hold 6 pple tonite. hahaha

Wed 18th Feb. Arrival at Melbourne airport. Went to Sugandi's place to bunk in for the night and that gave me the chance to soak up the city life for a day and give my weary eyes, tired legs a well deserved rest. After all the flight was delayed and i had the least amount of sleep (:p coz i stayed awake to finish up movies). After a hearty breakfast, went to shop for some chinese groceries, and return to his place for a short break. Met up with Zyan and his sis Shelvin later on in the afternn. went around sight-seeing and got the chance to see where Shelvin stayed in Melbourne. also had the chance to go to University of Melbourne to vist and boy its huge and grand. its like so much more beautiful and historical looking compared to our pale, monash clayton. after that went for dinner, had the chance to soak up in the spa available at sugandi's place and oh boy its the most relaxing time hahaha. went back to sleep and i fell asleep in an instant.
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now its thurs 19th feb, i'm using their internet connection loggin on to bloggers to give the latest update to my life. and boy today will be the day i return to gippy already and i must say it will be great fun to be back there. so for more of that i will update it when i get back to gippy. but for now i'm richmond tung, signing off from melbourne city.
cheers!

ok its 12 hrs to countdown! haha had a wonderful 10 hrs sleep on my bed. going to miss it. oh man that soft soft pillow and comfortable bed...oohhhh haha. going for a wonderful breakfast then its off to see my grandpa before heading home, have a good shower and say goodbye to my house...and its off to the airport for my last moments in SG til the next time.
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this is Richmond signing off right now from Singpapore. will see all of you soon.
cheers!!!

ok its probably the moment i dread most... the one moment where you need to say goodbye and farewell to all your family and friends, especially to those you really love and care most. i dunno whether it will be a teary goodbye for now or just a brave face i will put up. i really wonder. right now in my mind i only wish that one person will turn up on that very moment at the airport and say goodbye. even though i know its hard to change the facts and have to live up to reality, i still pray that one day things will change. so my one wish is for that person to turn up. but deep down i know its like asking for the wind and rain to come and go, its like asking for something that will never happen. but nonetheless i wish i hope i pray that somehow tonight my thoughts will touch that person and she will realise my feelings and thoughts.
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set aside feelings and thoughts, tonite is the nite i hope to sleep real soundly on my bed. Zzzzz...hehe going to miss it alot. probably for the next 9 to 10 months. wonder if i will even come back at the end of the year. but who knows, probably i will make a surprise visit in the middle of the year??? haha just thinking bout it.

ok saturday went to celebrate my cousin gladys' 22nd birthday...sort of for her missed 21st due to some reasons. basically some small celebration and dinner together with the rest of the cousins. haha got some pics to upload but then its not with me now. so will do it later on. ok my days are numbered. left bout 43 hrs before i leave the country. probably will miss the food back here but hey what the heck. anyway hopefully later will be a better day and a better week too. coz i will be in a different place all over again in just that short period of time.

today i'm at paul's place bloggin....haha and he's such a bloke. hmmmm kinda funny whenever i hang out with him... probably is that cheerful face of his that rubs off u and makes your day a whole lot better.

its friday the 13. haha great hey? then tomlo or should i say later in a few minutes. its valentine's day. hopefully all those are attached and happily together enjoy themselves. all those who are single don't worry coz your turn will come soon. and most importantly i feel, all of us should also remember those who are less fortunate than us? valentine's its not just couple love, its all about the spirit of sharing and giving. so remember those who are less fortunate in your prayers and in your dreams. ''lets make this world a better place not just for you and me but for the entire human race."
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had a few changes made around me just today. so probably will end up looking kinda different from before. wonder will anyone recgonise me after this??? haha just kiddin nothing much has changed.

some unexpected turns in events might lead to me not going back to gippy. i dunno how to explain the situation to all, but if you do read this please keep me in your prayers if you pray at all. :(

have been seeing quite a bit of the 'stargate series' recently and really wonder are there aliens in these vast universe we all perceive? more advance less advance races? so where do we humans as we call ourselves lie? wish they had such a stargate program and its real. i would love to travel to the unexplored frontiers where we can only imagine. are there are aliens in this world who are living amongst us and just protecting and monitoring our interests? wonder wonder...all of these are out of this world thoughts for tonite's blog... :P

this is an afternoon blog, coz i felt a need to say something. ever wonder why people who have it all, happy and comfortable with their lives always explaining to those who are down and out to wake up and move on? i really wonder. they see u in a light that makes u look like a pessimistic bummer or someone just so pathetic and they are always right and u wrong coz u r down and out. its very hard to voice out your feelings when such things go on. all i know i have been a victim of such discrimination (not those harsh harsh ones, but some people tend to overlook it when they make comments). i'm deemed silly and stubborn to the extend that i'm always doing the wrong things. so what i believe is no longer valid? do i have to conform to those who think they are right? probably they are right? probably i'm right? who knows? all these seems so subjective, objective whatever... i guess it all boils down to your own rights to think the way you want it the way you see things and the way you do things.
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so my impending departure seems to many like as though i am escaping from things. my desire to leave SG ASAP is subjected to 'u can't wait to leave can?' yes no doubt i need to leave, no doubt i have a desire to leave certain things behind, but isn't it moving on forward and not living it to the past? i feel a need to leave to cool things off and to let things take its natural course. my departure from my home is no less painful or happy. i would rather stay on behind and carry on. but certain things gotta be done and my path have been set.
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my voice here today is just one of many who are waiting to break free and move on. there are many others who are less fortunate then me. probably subjected to some psychiatric observation and no one will ever believe in them. as for me, i'm living a happy simle life for now. come what may in the future i do not know and do now wish to know til the very day and moment comes. otherwise i will be working hard for it, the way i want things to be the way i do things my way. :)

another day has passed. all i did that was notable, i had lunch with my cousin, derek who was working nearby today. haha had chicken rice yum yum. told my mum about it and she got the shock of her life, some more tell me not to eat any more...say got bird flu very dangerous. haha i'm finding all these illness and sicknesses very ridiculous. so we got the mad cow disease, bird flu, pig virus (nipah), civet cat caused the SARS, then our oceans catch are polluted with mercury and all those industrial waste. so now we cannot eat beef, poultry, pork, seafood coz its all contaminated. so wat now? do we turn to becoming vegetarians? hey dun be silly even the vegs are polluted by pesticides. so why not everyone just take it easy and carry on the way we used to. yeah there are these life threatening diseases now on the rampage, but don't we have such kinds already existing now? AIDS, cancer and many other kinds of life threatening ones which can kill u instantly too. so i really wish everyone just stop worrying and live life to the fullest it will be much simply wont it? coz if u r really going to get killed one day by these 'things', it will come one fine day eventually. hmmm...go think

SHERMAN'S 21st Birthday Party

my past came back to haunt me, even though that not so distant past memories ain't bad. all those happy memories have become nightmare to me, so much that i have to fool myself to stay home all the time. everytime i walk onto the streets and every corner of the places i go, those memories just flash across my mind without any delay. images of someone keeps appearing in my head, all the things we used to do haunt me so much now. if time could ever turn back just for one moment in my life, i will make it go back to the very day the 2 of us met. to the time where everything between us started and i want to go through it one more time even though i know the ending already, coz there is so much feeling in it the heart and soul that it will take me my lifetime to forget that someone. :(

ok i already went to my cousin's birthday yesterday, the place was probably the biggest chalet i ever stayed over man, its actually a huge bungalow chalet, double story with 7 rooms each with its own huge attached toilets, a huge kitchen, huge living room, and its probably an all British design that was damn obiang (ugly kinda old funny looks). Not much things we could do and perhaps it was the location that played the part. wanted to play badminton, but ended up draggin our asses here n there til we played volleyball, captains ball and some old childhood games. the highlight was, we were all secondary sch level age and beyond...haha even a working professional (my 2nd eldest cousin) ended up play hide n seek with us...hahaha... probably the gathering was a good place to meet up and have a few laughs...but we were still missing some pple sadly who was not there all the time. hmmm the company was fun, but probably the location should change to somewhere else, somewhere with more facilities around. hahaha

okok this is an afternoon bloggin by me...just in case i wont be back til sunday late nite. hmmm right now i'm preparing to go for my cousin's 21st birthday party at some chalet. wonder when will i get to celebrate my birthday too. i didn't had mine when i turned 21. though time passed so quickly, i really wish i could have my own birthday party too. in fact i cannot even remember when was the last time i really had a big birthday bash. maybe no one remembered about my birthday? nah i think for me its ok coz i think it gives me lots of free time to ponder on those birthdays days...i guess this year will be the same as previous years where i just lie on my wonderful bed staring into the ceiling pondering my own existence. i guess i'm just a small fry. hahaha

oops...was suppose to blog for friday...but haha i was just too busy indulging myself in some kungfu fighting strategy game i got. so its really close to 1 am. Yes and i'm quite surprise i'm not yet sleepy. what a boring day it is. staying at home all day long seems wonderful coz i dont have to move around...just like a panda bear lazing around on my bed waiting for meals in between... hmmm... gotta put on some healthy weight before heading back to gippy. So today is saturday already, it also marks the day when i get really busy to entertain family and friends. Kinda being booked for family functions over the 2 remaining wkends i have left over in SG. so friends are scheduled only for the weekdays. but mostly un-confirmed and still being in the process of arrangment. though its great to meet up with people, it seems to me i don't have that urge to meet anyone. sadly i know the reason why, but i don't intend to correct it just yet. i'm really enjoying every bit of the moment just being alone. just me alone. all the time i have for now is going to be spent being alone for now.

Its been a while since i started blogging. I must say its quite interesting and fun at the same time. The number of people blogging is really surprising. I have met fellow bloggers and seen some really amazing and fantastic blogs since. For me I think I'm just a amatuer blogger. But some of these blogs i have seen are really professional. Hmmm in the future i think i might shift into my own website. Though Blogger.com has given me alot of practise grounds for this, i might move on eventually to having my own site to call home.

haha actually after much consideration, i think i would love to do the blog everyday if i can, just to keep myself entertained, keep my family and friends updated, and to log down everyday events that have been part of my everyday life. Its something new, i never kept a diary, i never thought i would anyway, but now its all seems so special to do this. Hmmmm WHO KNOWS, but one day maybe when i become famous, i can write a book about my life??? hahaha just a fancy thought there. Anyway right now, i'm really left with a few more wks in SG before heading back to Gippy for my studies. So hoping that my friends do realise its now or never to meet up before its going to take another long time before we actually do meet up. I love meeting up with all of them but to call them i rather not, coz i know most of them are busy like a bee catching up with their other friends, or have their studies to settle. So whatever time left should be spent with their families. Haizz it always seem to be the big 'TIME FACTOR' that spoils everything in the end. wonder now can we make time stop? hahaha or even turn back time? hmmm interesting idea. of course i know its day dreaming to want that thing to happen. sometimes dreaming can give peace to the heart and soul. hahaha

dunno whether i should update the blog everyday???

Another week has passed another moment gone, and all had to do was stare blankly into the ceiling of my room. Wondering what has happened to all my friends i made in my lifetime. Just wondering how is everyone, what have they been doing and wondering whether they still remember. Weeks have passed but how do i get rid of the blues i still experience??? Just feel that if i was to remain the way i'm right now, i'm never going to move on. But how do i get out of it? The same things still make me wanna go for it, the same things still make me wanna think. I need something or someone to lead me out of this....