Thursday, September 30, 2004

"La Storia"

its thurs morning, a bright and sunny day greets me. but here i'm stuck in my room, hope to go out there and absorb some fresh air and sunny sunshine... hahaha

probably go to the back yard and read some books later. actually was thinking to have it now... oh wellz...cheers people, enjoy your day =)

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

"La Storia"

assignment are a constant hazard, as i struggle to finish up my 2nd last assignment. damn it. can somebody just screw things up alittle!

just took time off and explored some of my friends' blogs. as usual, i'm tickled by Jac's ever great blog entries, alittle bit turned off by the lack of update in Zyan's but still enjoy his background music, excited by the changes in nette's, groove to the goo goo max by eadwine's great photography skills in his, constantly amused by our favourite and spontaneous Geraldine, like the 2 cents worth in Kijin's, happy to see Samson all excited and happy in his, and many others like Stacey's, Samantha's etc...

oh wellz...back to mugging the books...

back to being all home alone today...again... =(

wish i was back in west house 49...
"La Storia"

its the 28th of september, 2nd day of the one week semester break for uni. it sure doesnt feels like having a break at all. assignments are really crapping up our lives. oh manz...

back to reality, lets face it, assignments do suck. studies do suck sometimes, no matter how much i love studying. lets hope that desire doesnt burn out soon. hahaha

its been how many days since i left singapore? i'm left staring at the calendar, looking at the months and counting the days. i'm away for nearly 9 months. it seems so long ago, but yet it seems so fast. time really do pass by real quick. i want to have more of a university life.

wonder if i could study and work, or study and don't work...hmmmmm must be really rich to do that. oh wellz...... =) i'm glad to have done something in life... graduating soon anywayz.

Sunday, September 26, 2004

"La Storia"

what a chill out saturday! great fun! my lazy saturday morning was reintroduced into a burst of life with a road trip! wellz, headed off to the countryside of drouin for a fruit farm introduction with my mates, yan.c, yan.y and irene. was expecting to see some berries, but alas no such luck but had some experience on citrus fruits instead.

our next destination was really to bring the gals to see the nicest tulips we have seen in years. probably not as nice as when i first saw them, but really had fun taking loads of pics. (will upload some of them into webshot for all to see) and on the way there we picked up irene's friend, leng (ok dun really know how to spell)..hahahaha

our final destination was really the highly anticipated Melbourne Royal Show, at Flemington racecourse showgrounds. well on a great saturday, nothing beats getting the showbags we want and catching a glimpse of what the whole of victoria has to offer. was quite surprise at the smaller scale of this event. but it was all good, less of a traffic jam and clutter.

waited for the whole evening for the one thing the gals have been promised by me and yan.c.... superb fireworks! well we were not dissappointed at all. it can't be compared to those major events' firework display, but to witness something like that on a great day already was something just unique. well the day was highly eventful, had great fun and company.

reach home on the same night, and i slept like a pig....ZZZZzzzz....


Friday, September 24, 2004

"La Storia"

the day draws near, the month is nearing the end... how shall i go forth into my future? i'm in a pleasant mood. =)

the morning is fresh and the night's sleep was fantastic, but the moment i twitch my brain cells alittle whilst sitting down here, the dreaded word ....'assignment' comes into mind....hahahaha oh wellz...looks like i gotta get it over and done with by tonite.

i'm off for my long awaited and alittle bit out dated and procrastinated date with the roads this morning. hmmm tackling the road will be quite difficult today. i wonder how would i do. nahhhhh i have that confidence but cautious to be aware of my weaknesses. so gotta brush it up. ok off for it now. wish me luck... yikes =p

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

"La Storia"

not too good, just taken ill this morning, dun feel too well and had a splitting migraine in the morning, lol and i look like a bird-brain, melissa can vouch for that when she commented on my hair just now at the meeting, hahaha and VJ had to give me that look of his... hahahaha, oh man, i think i'm in the worse shape.

i've got 2 assignments due and "overdued". i'm starting the first one, hoping to finish the 2nd one by sunday. i realise the burden on my shoulders are heavy already. there's so much things i will be forced to decide, my future looks like crapz.

"oh wellz, crapz it maybe, plough the roads i must,
earth that bind the feet, sky is out of reach,
flock in the direction, blind as the bat,
only to see a glimmer..."




Tuesday, September 21, 2004

"La Storia"

and as the day trickle by, i shared the joy with my fabulous housemates and family yan.c & yan.y of another day well spent and things achieved ...hehehe great day today i tell you. dinner was a sumptuous lotus soup, stewed chicken, spicy tofu and top it off with ice creams and coca cola... hahahaha

hmmmm i guess life can only get better or worse in some cases.

Monday, September 20, 2004

"La Storia"

so the story ends for one of my fav. australian idol contestant... lol oh wellz... still got courtney, ricki and anthony... hahaha

kinda feelz sadz for the idol contestants, especially with the amount of pressure they going through. though i'm not in such a position to feel or say anything bout that, but sort of can see? feel? perceive that feeling... oh man...

oh well, back to the drawing board for me, back to the assignment writing and back to the busy busy planning schedule.

Sunday, September 19, 2004

"La Storia"

well it seems like the year is about to draw to a close. in the blink of an eye, i'm standing right here in the middle of september. spring is in its full bloom.

alot of decisions have to be made. alot of questions need to be answered. problems to be solved. i'm looking forward to meeting them all soon. i'm not daunted by those things, but rather excited and alittle nervous. =)

i've put in alot of thought during the past 10 days. i see light in what had happened. i'm ready to move forward alittle bit faster. scale to new heights and prove myself wrong.

Saturday, September 18, 2004

"La Storia"

exhausted. the road trip to get stuff done for the upcoming events was truely beyond imagination, who would do such a thing... only 2 jokers. listening to tamil pop...listening to crappy radio stations... kiling antz... and driving the car down like some punk kids, with big logos attach to the sides. oh wellz...

Friday, September 17, 2004

"La Storia"

one word to sum it all up for today....


~Fantastic~

Thursday, September 16, 2004

"La Storia"

what is in the past scares me now....as the hour approach, i'm running and hiding away from it all. what happened more than 3 years ago still haunt me deep in the heart. images from then cripple me during my sleep. will the heart ever learn to forget? why is my heart still heavy?

i have to face the situation and live. the desire burns within to give up and escape. where does my heart desire? can i think clearly in this troubled world within.
~~~~~~~~~~~

Happy Birthday To You.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

"La Storia"

sometimes i wonder where does this feeling begins, since when my heart was poisoned? tired and worn out, apologies doesn't have the same effect. deep in my heart, a hatred brewing, how do i move on from this pain? from you, you broke my heart and tore it to pieces, stirring the hidden devil within. charred and blackened by hurt and pain, only the brightest heart of gold can penetrate that dusty chamber. bitterness so strong, forgiveness for reconciliation seems so impossible. your words in a letter only make it harder and pain forgotten re-lived. how do i then hold on the last ounce of goodness within to break loose from all this madness and chaos.

i found this somewhere by an unknown author, its just words to reflect but goes a long way to calm that soul down.

"IF"

"...if you plant honesty, you will reap trust,
if you plant goodness, you will reap friends,
if you plant humility, you will reap greatness,
if you plant perseverance, you will reap victory,
if you plant consideration, you will reap harmony,
if you plant hard work, you will reap success,
if you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation,
if you plant openness, you will reap intimacy,
if you plant patience, you will reap improvements,
if you plant faith, you will reap miracles,
but....
...if you plant dishonesty, you will reap distrust,
if you plant selfishness, you will reap loneliness,
if you plant pride, you will reap destruction,
if you plant envy, you will reap trouble,
if you plant laziness, you will reap stagnation,
if you plant bitterness, you will reap isolation,
if you plant greed, you reap loss,
if you plant gossip, you will reap enemies,
if you plant worries, you will reap wrinkles,
if you plant sin, you will reap guilt."

(Source: unknown author)

Monday, September 13, 2004

"La Storia"

i finally got the promises made returned. its really heart warming and to know that. maybe my answers were answered maybe the life after me was good. its been a one bumpy ride for me. feels like being a car rally race. =)

really great to see the trees and the flowers blooming. this means the Fruits! are coming soon. muahahahahaha. Peaches, Prunes and Nectarines! wahahahahaha

i know yan.c and yan.y did some potato planting, hmmm and i think we have a surprise package in the tomato plant. lol. i think this house is a farm! oh not forgeting the spring onion plant growing behind.

~~~~~~~~~~

not forgetting we had a great evening yesterday making our own roti canai! we had peanut butter, peanut butter and nutella, telor (egg), banana, planta (butter) and garlic flavoured rotis. lol spread with chicken rendang, chicken curry and tandoori chicken. well i can only say that 6 of us are stuffed! =)

~~~~~~~~~~

"someplace to go,
somewhere to flow,
someone in tow,
someone to hold,
something to know..."






Sunday, September 12, 2004

"La Storia"

had a great chat with someone i barely knew yesterday, the wisdom and insight that person gave me, enhanced not only my understandings but widen my own perspectives. what seem to be only just a personal reflection can shake the grounds that laid all foundations.

past and present what does it matter? our situations are totally different. i criticise the manner of the past and some don't see it as constructive. i have to respect by showing humility and tact. in the other end of the spectrum my comments are seen to be destructive and to extract self praise.

angry past creeping up on us? or angry mob that have nothing to do but take it out on an issue? a bad case of PR? a bad case of being at the wrong place at the wrong time? i doubt it. if those who commented took notice i'm sure they will be proven wrong at anytime.

i'm just sitting right here by my window, gazing upon the flowers that are blooming, reflecting on issues that have come and gone by. its been a great time chatting with that person, and i have learned alot from it. i'm always wrong, they are always right. chin up and move on.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

"La Storia"

somethings are hard to explain and of no use to explain. i guess i have to be humble and chin up. however just take into consideration, while i'm doing that, are those who criticise me doing that? have they reflected what they have done, their mistakes or achievements? lets not continue this relentless debacle of who did more than one another or what i should do or what i should have not. did you all not think that i have learned and grew from it?

if you still think what i did was wrong, don't make that same mistake as i did when you are in my situation. i know you all will never and thats good. for me this blog has been a source of argumenting my situation into perspective, to reflect and to recollect. what use is it to us now to harp and criticise each other on a past situation when right now we have already moved ahead? i receive my fair share of criticisms already and taken it with a pinch of salt.

i think all this is quite amusing for me... hahaha to see both sides of the coin in such a light hearted manner. maybe it was right for me to blog this sensitive issue here and gain feedback. i'm glad i did. all this will help me bridge the gap between both misunderstanding parties. now lets all work hard in closing that gap. =)
"La Storia"

just finish a 2 day in a row presentation, totally exhausted and drained out of brain juice. did some blogging that stirred a string of comments. oh well, what can i do or say? i'm glad just to have the fiercest of critics and the staunchiest of friends both have been great source of advice and inspiration.

i can only say this, my reflections about what i have blogged is my recollection and have no airs in it. i started writing on the basis of thanking those whom i had a wonderful experience with. i wish not to take credit and definitely don't deserve anymore than i deserved already. its a team effort, its the 'family' effort that i truely hold dearly to.

i have learnt to let my actions speak rather than words do the talking. i'm glad to have comments from gal, boy, noel, john, harvey, and fact. i have no intention to take your comments just as it is but will strive to improve on what i have done or failed to do. however if the six of you actually want to criticise me please stop using an alias. if you think i would consider all these comments to be a personal attack, you all have been truely mistaken and have not known the Richmond you all just scarcely know. if your comments derived from any frictions i had with you over time, i'm really sorry to have stepped on your foot to cause such a skirmish over these 2 days.

my dear friends your constant support and intentions will always be my pillar of strength and source of inspiration that i will translate into a constant, positive energy. alot of people underestimated me and misunderstood my actions.

~~~~~~~~~~~

humility, patience, loyalty, faith, courage and love. i learnt, i strived, i died and i lived for, only to be cast down upon a thousand fraction and crushed by the sombre waves. when oh when will i learn the true values of them all....

Friday, September 10, 2004

"La Storia"

cont'd from where i left off.....

yupz thats how i remembered my time in 2003 with 2 different sets of "family".

2004 began with renewed hope for me, as i started my 2nd term of presidency. however as the first 3 weeks passed i was disheartened by my own capabilities and failures to sustain.

my 3rd "family" included, Darrel, Samantha, Stacey, Samson, Zyan, Evon, Lyell, Yan Chyuan, Joo, Vanee, Sarah, Jason, Gaurav and Michael.

i remembered how we all started to plan for the year ahead. culture night was on the mind of all. maybe thats the reason why we were all exhausted. Darrel was our valuable vice president and now the current president, he's such a great character and never stops to impress me each time i worked with him. he has since taken over the torch from me and has done and even more impressive job than me.

Evon is new to the committee and was handed the toughest job we had in clearing up all the messed up finances. I was humbled by her dedication to solve our money problems. Vanee had this nice smile in each meeting that brought the meetings warmth and glow and was our welfare officer.

Sarah was my marketing research coursemate and my capable committee member. she single handedly accomplish things i gave her despite having to cope with 5 units in her final semester. i was impressed at her level of commitment and dedication even though she knew it will be all hard work and no rewards. its been an honours to meet someone like her, and its that character that touch my heart and drive me to push on.

Joo our big and super friendly member who hails from korea. he has impressed me with his credentials for organising the website but was only let down by the insincerity of the student union and IT dept for not giving us their best help.

ok here comes the best bit...my trio boys...great characters. great fun to be with. learnt alot from them too, Jason, Gaurav and Michael. hardworking lads but was really bogged down by their own studies and had not much time with us in the committee, but always rised up to the occasion and gave their best shot. =)

with the team in place and our time concentrated on making the event a success, we gave our best shot. i had not much of a say in the culture nite and most of the responsiblity fell onto our dear stacey who was terrified i supposed by the daunting task. she took it in her stride and gave it all. i was totally comforted by how samantha sacrificed her time off studies to give it all for the committee in arranging the culture nite. it brought me to tears each time as i took solace. i feel useless and helpless in the wake of organising such a big event. alot of them sacrificed their time to put up an event for the rest of the student population. deep down i tried to escape from the responsiblity.

it has become a burden for me as my path was filled with obstacles i tried to climb and to overcome. it would seem useless and uneventful to challenge myself to beat the odds. i gave up. there was alot of pressure on me to handle both student affairs, my own personal affair and family. well i guess looking back at it, i have grown and learnt alot from my dealings, mistakes and achievements.

personally i took up alot of 'beatings' from my closest friends here, their valuable criticism drove me up the wall. i had to take action but was only buckled under the pressure of affairs of the heart. i didnt take it well and exercise caution as my failing health was at risk. yet the biggest critics were my staunch supporters and gave me every help needed to get things right again.

i decided long before we held our elections that i would step down. i know its no use moving on in that capacity i held. i deeply regret stepping into the fray of student politics, but was deeply honoured by those who gave their continued support. and in some shocking fashion i must say i handed the baton to darrel to carry on the work we have all set to achieve from generations.

i knew i would draw heavy criticism for making such a sloppy change and for all the negative outlook i had for ISA. if i have to then, i will bear that burden for ISA and all the students that it represent. in reflection after all this time, i realise all good leaders will strive their best and this is one area i failed badly.

come this semester, i witness a big change, a new team under the leadership of darrel and Vj. they moved things faster than i did. they had make huge gains in organising the committee and enhancing the the reputation. i'm so impressed with their work rate.

this team consist of darrel, VJ, evon, stacey, melissa, clayton, samson, rachel, lyell, mufaro and abraham. i'm sure they will do very well and improve on what many generations of ISA committee has done so far. they have proven track records and though some of them are new to job but already has shown good capabilities. i've been impressed by the standards of their activities and publicity. lets see how this semester ends...as i close my chapter with ISA and move on.

an honour, an opportunity to work with people i knew just only and become part of a family that has guided my path throughout this university life.

this is my story, a story i hold so dearly in my heart and to share with my family and friends. its been a wonderful learning experience, a wonderful time and beyond my wildest imaginations.


Thursday, September 09, 2004

"La Storia"

happy for ISA! yippie... just can't ignore the fact that i have to praise those who have fought hard and kept it going after all this years...

it started off with the team i first knew...somewhat a makeshift team
we had sherman, sangee, ee san, debbie, lynette, melissa , stacey, zyan, jaime and myself...

imagine 10 of us having it up and running for 2003 sem 1. after how the previous president threw the gauntlet down to sherman, with nothing to work with... hahaha kinda scrappy and fun i must say...

i had that same thing coming when i took over... most of them graduated... sherman never knew what to do in handing stuff over...i was shell shocked as the new president... i only had zyan as my only remaining committee. jaime moved campus. and eventually we had yan chyuan on board even before the new semester started... things were gloomy for us...

student participation was at the lowest in all times....ISA almost ceased to exists... support was at its all time lowest and our reputation was just so...

kick starting something almost dead is like mission impossible...i had to work doubly hard sacrifice hours at home with my then west house 49 family on coming out ideas and innovations to reinvigorate ISA back up.

things were dim in my eyes...i see myself as a failure. a failure that ISA might fall and go under my leadership. try i might i was speculating alot on the future of ISA. this was a test for me. an obstacle i had to take, it was my baptism of faith and strength. taking courage i took the plunge and set forth with just the 3 of us in driving seat to move ISA back into the driving gear.

jaime before leaving gave us her last contribution to the future of ISA... our newsletter theme name, Mosaic. a wonderful name to describe our cultural and racial diversity within this small campus. i was thrilled and so was zyan and yan.c.

we started off what seems sloppy now but the best idea we could come up with then. our first newsletter to call for new blood into the ISA committee. we took this into our first new week of the semester. praying that our prayers and hope will be answered.

a few students came forth and took the challenge. the challenge to bring ISA back up to its feet and be a true student body for all international student. it was hardwork for us all and they took it with great faith.

my family within only came now... samantha, stacey, puifong, zyan, yan chyuan, samson, sue, melanie, lyell, michelle and zeliha. my first baptism of fire for leadership, for a direction to serve and to dedicate. i have not seen any better dedication than this team. we had our highs and lows...we had our funs and crapz...

working from scratch. we work to organise our functions. we work to organise activities for our students. we work to improve relations with others. we had alot to do. i took the bold initiative to change the committee structure and introduced new positions. probably we always had a good laugh about it back then and now...about how i ruled with an iron fist? like a dictator? hahaha well we don't really had a choice.

samantha was our lovely secretary who used her experience to revamp the book keeping system and its still being used even today. stacey our hardworking activities officer was really daunted by her job but took it with stride and produced many great activities that are still in our memories.

puifong my housemate, my personal advisor, our great finance officer, under my constant naggin and supervision used her accounting skills to sort out our finances and did some new changes to how we track our money...it sort of become our foundation. zyan our ever talented activities turned publications officer (becoz stacey dowan to be publication officer hahaha), he had a very big hand in producing the best collections of ISA newsletter in all time i deem, a true work of art and something hard to reproduce considering the kind of resources we had back then.

yan chyuan, our webmaster back then, tried his best to deliver but was hampered only by the lack of input from us all and the lack of resources but he gave us knew insights into our webpage and how to get it up. samson my mooo mooo public relations officer, a true gem, hard working and willingness to learn and gain new experience, brought a new dimension and his infectious laughter into meetings and activities.

sue was part of our new generation of committee members otherwise known back then as general committee members (now its known as executive committee officers.) she had the bubbly cheer each time and did her best to help out and contribute ideas. melanie, my sista, my team member, a tall personality (considering she is tall for a gal) hehehe, contributed alot into this committee with ideas and hard work.

lyell our senior and trusty advisor and member of the committee, a lecturer by day, and a cape crusader with us by evening during meetings...hahahaha. michelle member of the committee, was hardworking and a valuable asset to us during her time with us and contributed alot into laying the foundations. zeliha our welfare officer, a constant smile and contribute to helping solve student problems, and was our belly dancing queen hahahaha.

well this was the team that got me craving for more and dedicating to something worthwhile. this will be cont'd tomolo... hahaha
"La Storia"

hmmm lately i have not showcase my "une nouvelle" already....will do it over the weekend...have been really busy with my double presentation over the 2 days...really drained out of brain juice already... must add some fresh "relaxation" time into the body before i climb the next hurdle...

A 2000 and 3500 ESSAY DUE NEXT WEEK!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHH

ok...hahaha had pizza today with yan.c and yan.y... lol aussie special...hmmmmm going to have some for snack later...

well from now til friday evening its relaxation time...so if anyone wants to join me...just buzz me...if not i'm off to the world of the Gunbound...wakakakaka =)

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

"La Storia"

damn it damn it damn it...why why why... crazy week crazy timetable crazy study load...all in this two weeks.... and i'm loving it loving it.... =p

can i wrangle someone's neck now? need to destress...10 hrs from now, i hope to give my individual presentation on gender relations within the family and how it actually proliferates into the wider society. damn it....how how how....after a draining day on wednesday with all the classes and presentation preps...i dun think i can last another day without sleeping...crazy!

ok i think i shall sleep. and just wreck my final semester with a lousy sociology of family and generations result...hahahahaha you think i would????

ok back to work...everyone take care and study hard lor...

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

"La Storia"

such a pity... a fine individual blinded by others... and led astray by those around... when will that person ever learn? well i'm praying everyday and attending church to know how to find that strength and courage to move hearts. its so difficult. its almost impossible. i knew someday this will happen coz i read that heart like a book...that stony heart. that cold fallen heart...

~~~~~~~~~

a busy week for me. can someone wrangle my lecturers necks...hahaha well...at this very moment i miss being with someone. i'm at the stressful peak of my day with presentation materials to prepare. i've not taken my dinner yet. the body is moving slowly.

oh come on Richmond you can snap out of it. =)

well...i'm sure some of us will have that stupid damn day like mine somewhere along the days and the weeks and the months and years and decades, well i dun think we can make it centuries though =p (though i wish i could)

Monday, September 06, 2004

"La Storia"

well...a nice day to begin with...went for class...it rained no doubt but yet its the kind of weather that is great for sleeping...nah... i went ahead to make my roti canai and telor...well it came up well for a beginner...hope to make it crispier next time round...well off to sample it in my own domain now...tata...feast your eyes on these man..(sorry for the blur image...haha to protect industrial secret mah...yah right) =P


roti canai and telor

chicken curry to go with it

Sunday, September 05, 2004

"La Storia"

well what a day for me...off to church as usual...then headed to for my marketing grp thingy...well it lasted from 12 noon to just about 1030pm just NOW!!!! hahaha crazy stuff i tell you... there were 3 heads going nuts in the room just trying our best with this presentation thingy...

well...i'm sure we will be very satisfied with what we did...oh brudder...that tells me i've gotta start on my other sociology presentation for thursday coming....damn it...

well off to do more research and chill out with some new songs...hahahaha

oh by the way if the pics you can't see them go to my webshot link...its all in there... =)

Saturday, September 04, 2004

"La Storia"

hmmmm the time of the year where the Tulip Farm and the trip to the Royal Melbourne Show is at hand...

great fun at the showground...had the tatoo back then and had loads of fun checking out the showbags, animals and stuff...really a annual event worth going to... we did go last year and there will be another one after all, this year... too bad no one is organising a trip there... well we will be making the trip down ourselves then... so just check it out pple... here are some pics

Royal Melbourne Showground

Bad Boys Bad Boys!

Royal Melbourne Show

Ticket Prices are:

(at the entrance)
$20 for adults
$10 for child
$15 for concession
$10 senior

(after 5pm or a.k.a after dark)
$15 for adults
$8 for child
$12 for concession

(group bookings for 10 tickets or more)
$16 for adults
$9 for child
$13.50 for concession


Tulips Up Close and Personal

Hmmm Dutch Farmers??? Yan.C and Yan.Y

Ice Cream Galore at the Tulip Farm

Tulip Festival

Ticket Prices are:

Adults: $14.00
Concession: $12.00
Children (under 16): Free, if accompanied by adults.
Groups: $9.50 per adult in pre-booked groups of 10 or more
"La Storia"

ok...the day pass by slowly... i did pratically absolutely definitely nothing... =(
i just laze it away eating going to gym, eating and sleeping...well i think i needed the break...hahahaha.....eating cheesecake now...and its yum yum yum

well later in the night i will start my work... another busy and hectic week for me coming up, so i better move along with the already piling up workload...hahahahaha

i'm ready to RUMBLE!!!!!!! grrrrrr..... =)

Friday, September 03, 2004

"La Storia"

what can one do? i'm not too sure... i'm in a limbo rock now... a decision i have to make...so far yet so near... to do or not to do is the question...

i want to excel and i want to be the best, yet hampered by only the one thing that drives this world... what shall i do? who shall i turn to for advice for help? must i give up and plunge into the world i so dread...

let me see whether i can change the situation =)

i have no explanations i have no answers, only just questions...
~~~~~~~~~~

somethings are hard to explain. i'm disappointed twice in my life. both of which i placed trust and place faith in it, tried very hard to nurture and explore, learn and grow in it. yet i'm left only with an answer that don't seem to say much... promises broken, words not kept and actions otherwise... i've gotta get away and the worse bit is i can't forget... no matter how much i try to forget, it keeps on coming back to haunt me...things happen for a reason

i can only cleverly disguise so much of my heart...otherwise its just another rotten place to be at now...hahaha =p




Thursday, September 02, 2004

"La Storia"

some dreams are real some dreams are not...how bout dreams of the past? i dreamt of a past event that happen nearly 2 years back ....of someone i just knew alittle bit better recently...after all this time...

timeless dreams, countless events...

~~~~~~~~~~

just had dinner, just had badminton, just had a glass of wine, now i'm alittle stoned, confused and needing help......today just passed by as though nothing ever happened....kinda scary....


Wednesday, September 01, 2004

"La Storia"

a brand new day of the month... a brand new start for many... some of us starting out a new beginning as another chapter closes... and it has been good for some of us and some of us are feeling down...

but for me today it started on a worse day of the week hahahaha...can faintz man... wednesdays are the worst day of my week... well i guess evon and stacey can share in this sentiment...hahaha

well a plus for me today is the improvement in ISA. the association is improving every step along the way(and i'm glad that i was part of it every step of the way, while i was here in gippy...) today's news are all good news for me...criticisms and praise are constructive points for the committee to learn and grow... and i'm saying those who are in it are maturing and growing each day as we tackle problems (not only just ISA but our own problems) there is no explanation, it really took me by surprise...

i never expected that i could drive something for so long, 2 years of pure hard work, working along side with the best, the funniest, the most hardworking, the craziest and lovable bunch of student volunteers. its an achievement. its a bright spark.

crazy it seems...but my time in this campus is finally coming to a close, as i move on to another chapter in my life. a sense of satisfaction, a sense of contribution and nothing is in vain. i'm sure all those who know what i have done will acknowledge that. =)