sometimes someone will come along and piss you off. today is no exception. really sometimes you can wonder how did that person just pisses you off. dunno what is going inside that thick skull??? anyway bless me please for another month of endless suffering.

personal thoughts:
i want to do the things i can't do at this moment. i want to be with the one i can't be with at this moment. i want to have the time which i can't have at this moment. i want the experiences which i can't have at this moment.

its already tuesday 3am. i'm doing up some stuff for ISA. trying to finish up my assignments and readings too. i'm really depleting away my life force at this rate. if only someone could share my burden. i miss someone. i miss my family. i miss my friends. i need some time off from all these stressful stuff and spend it with whom i want to be with most. my eyes are closing... but i feel a need to write this out....

What can one International Students' Association do to me? It has taken away most of my time. It has taken away the time i could have spent with someone i want to be with. It has taken away time i could have spent with myself. It has taken a away my health. It has taken up most of my determination. It has taken up most of my will, hope and heart. All this is done for one simple reason, a need to help others. just other international students. to fight for their rights, for their welfare, for their social well being as well as other factors that can affect them whilst here in Australia studying. my determination is fading away. morale is low. how can i help, when those whom you help, put you down and condemn you? i pity the effort of those who came before me and to those who are around me at these moments, sacrificing so much for something we don't deserve really. the committee members over the years have put in alot of hard work to put us where we are now. its a pity if all this is going to end... Collective spirit and unity is what i crave for and hunger to create in the community. what i envision is, one day all ISA members will go up to their representatives in the committee and give them a pat on the back for a job well done. everyone is supporting each other no matter where you come from. the kind of feeling of which, i at this moment can't describe much, but i'm sure you will know. i'm working towards that vision, that goal.

"no one man or woman can be an island of their own."

the situation for me is getting more crucial. no more unwise decisions. no more fickled mindedness. trying to settle one problem one situation one question at a time. don't want to lose track of what i must do and what i want. its going to be a crucial 2 weeks for me as i struggle pass it. i hope everyone will support me one way or another. argh! i feel so sucky now.

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my wkend was spent over at the city meeting up with nette, who came down to Oz for a holiday with her mum. so a few of us took that opportunity to meet up with her. its been a busy wkend for all of us. i'm really disappointed at this moment with alot of things. things i need to do and want to do cannot be fulfilled. quite sucky that feeling i can say. i really hope some of my friends have better luck than me. its beginning to be clearer to me what a frd of mine told me about the current situation. its getting worse and we need to do something about it. but how am i alone going to solve this when i dun have the answer? can't imagine what life would be if we didnt participated. can't imagine how would life would be if we all didnt meet. i feel all of us have learnt something valuable from it and will cherish it for a long time to come. i dunno how you all will feel, but for me i know i will.

personal thoughts:
i need answers, i need inspirations, i need encouragement, i need you, i need alittle nudging, i need alittle direction, i need alittle hint.

OOOH...back for more tongue lashing. personal attack? yoz ANONYMOUS. you've gotta be so interested in my blog to come here and make such an effort to give your obviously not needed comment. "How many times do I have to flush before you, MR or MS ANONYMOUS will go away?"...i doubt you will anyway...hahaha i guess i'm stupid to you huh? oh man then what is your IQ? do you even know there's an EQ? what is the use of having a high IQ when u have a low EQ? hoho this is so much fun. you actually can bother to do this. i dunno what is your purpose or intention. but u can try continue doing that. coz no matter what you say or do. you're going to be shot down by the rest of us. =P

Today's topic:
freedom of speech. intellectual property. some people just don't get it do they. they can criticise others but dun realise, hey others too have that same privilege and rights.

Personal thoughts:
lost in transition. lost in temptation. lost in attraction. lost in solution. lost in translation. lost in relation. lost in formation.............

its nearly 4am, just woke up. dunno what the heck i doin...didnt had enough sleep the day before. slept after dinner and now wake up at this time??? hahaha i think i goin back to sleep. had a relatively frustrating evening on wednesday. have i known it earlier i would have done something to make it better. but yes! life is making it difficult for me to climb.

personal thoughts:
tired tired tired. . . sick sick sick. . . flu flu flu. . .rest rest rest. . .

yes i'm sure my fellow bloggers, family and friends, by now you would have guess what's the latest going-ons around my blog. verbal criticism, defensive and offensive attacks. quite funny how some pple can criticise you but dare not mention who they are. coward? no guts? i'm not sure. why does someone want to critically blast you for what you write on your own blog? funny isnt it? its my own blog mind you. and the internet is a free space to express my views and to express your views. but to some extend be mindful of where you should be tactful about and how you're going to give your views on certain things. this is after my blog-space and where many other bloggers have their own worlds too. ok enough of these crapz shit goin on in my blog. . . =P

crazy i say, all the work that's gotta be done. i'm half way through my assignment and really stuck somewhere in between. sucks i tell you. same here for somethings in my life, just stuck in an area of blurry grey lines. i need answers and i need them soon. i'm telling myself to be patient but errrrr, there's a limit to it.

personal thoughts:
meaning of this section. its my section for a chain of thoughts that is currently going thru my mind. without reason, without understanding. it just sounds good for me, makes some sense, and it will be up here in this section. so dun take it too seriously but leave comments on it and i will try to answer them. =)

This is fantastic...thanks to the kind individual(s), the person(s) have made my blog a big hit recently. You have your own opinion, we have ours in our own blogs. So stick to your own world and let us have fun with ours. Hey but you're always welcome to come back and criticise. No worries. Hey family and friends, this is one great moment. Its been great fun. =)

argh! just woke up to study...crazy lifestyle...and hey saw the blog's tagboard...and i must say this 'Welcome back Mr or Miss Anonymous', your comments are much appreciated. alittle criticism along the way is no harm. i must say you have great command of the language. you added spice to my blog. but this is just a simple blog. if you think its too 'dilettante' in expression...errr TOO BAD.its quite suprising you cannot comprehend anything from this site, its a big joke for all the bombastic words and class you used and seem to portray. how long do you need to use the dictionary do come out with those words? as for it being 'truman show'......hey this is RICHMOND's BLOG! so no comparisons at all man...no acting no script, just pure chain of thoughts and feelings. =)

another new wk begins as we forge ahead with enthusiasm and zest. the wks to come will be most exciting and i hope all those you know i will be thinking about, pls do your best and dont be let down. i know we can do it all together. all will be fine in the end. if u dun believe, believe that in me and i will show you all the way.

personal thoughts:

time with a special person seems so short. its a time well spent. its a time that will be cherished. its a time that will be craved for. its a time that comes to a standstill and you will be overcomed by passion and love. time......

its sunday already. today marks the end of the one week mid-semester break for us all over here in gippy campus. and already i can feel the boredom in all of us. i'm not so good this wk. everything i do seems wrong. every turn i make is wrong. everything i tried to do end up fruitless. feels shitty. feels sulky. i'm not complaining just trying to voice out my feelings onto this blog. letting out the frustrating thoughts. oh man......

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what seems real. seems so fake. dunno what to say. what to do.

its the weekend already. didnt really had the time to update my blog. had tons of work to settle. now in the early hours of a lazy saturday morning i sit in front of the small black box typing this entry in. oh boy! i have another marketing grp meeting at 1pm later and its raining at the moment. i'm taking one step at a time for the moment. not rushing to anywhere or to finish anything. i'm goin to sit here n listen to the music i have on mp3.

personal thoughts:

time flies, time is precious and time is slippin away.

Help! SOS! Assignment due today! Half Way Done! cannot finish. dunno where to put my stuff. all seems blurry. =(

BUSY BUSY. drowning in my work. help me help me. why must we still study during the break? darn! going to blaze thru today with work. will try to finish up 2 assignments all together today... possible? i doubt it. but i could try. muahahaha

personal thoughts:
i think i i goin crazy with the piles of work lying on my desk. i might emerge from the 1 wk break lookin like a old man rather than a refresh young guy man. greats =( gotta get some fun after wednesday

time challenges us. people challenges us. fate challenges us. should we then take it in our stride, or just run away from a good challenge? you decide. optimism vs pessimism. which is the one you choose? i really dunno that answer too. its not easy to be decisive. how long can a person last in times of challenge? not very long i guess.

personal thoughts:
confused with work. confused with thoughts. confused with what i'm writing out. confusion to the max.

saloon nites.... i think i'm getting too old for this kind of dancing n partying already. ouch the whole body aching man. really sucks. did some work over on friday. tired most of the time. went to radio station. today i just started my bright n sunny saturday. what great weather we can have. but i nearly froze to death yesterday nite coz its freakin cold.

experiences. what a way to learn. in the process to fly we already fell many times. conflicts a source of hope. being who i'm is difficult. being in the position i have is more difficult. standard to high? expectations too high? hmmm dunno...what the heck!

personal thoughts:

friends closest to me, dun be sad, coz i know how you might feel. though not fully understandable by me, but yupz dun be sad

i'm happy today and sad at the same time. mixed emotions i guess. at one hand i know i have seen the best there is, the other its just sad stuff.

personal thoughts:
do re mi fa so la ti

news have been spreading like wild fire about my personal life. its so funny, i didnt know people actually interested in news about me...never expected to be so high profile. yupz no doubt life is alot more interesting now coz of this, but hey this is my life with that someone special, and i'm going to keep it special just for the both of us to know, for you all out there to find out the hardest way....("for me to know, for you to find out..") =P

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miss my family, miss my food, miss my bed, miss the sunny singapore, miss all the wonderful moments i had, but i'm looking forward for winter to come, looking forward to a new whole experience, looking forward to a new whole beginning

saturday was our house warming session. had a wonderful time doing it. really tired from all the cooking and washing. i think i'm goin to fall sick soon from tiredness. but really loved it.

personal thoughts:
fed up with teasing. fed up with being a fool. fed up being alone. fed up with the unfairness. life is a stink bomb. life is a journey. life is wonderful. life is random.

this week is bad...really bad...so far...alot of bad things happened...not just me...but friends around me...oh man...what a week so far...hope things do get better...especially when we have our house warming party this coming wkend...

personal thoughts:

i'm fallin head over heels, down that long tunnel of love. with the past behind me, the future looks bright.