"my cup of tea"

i love my cup of tea the way it is....
but then again who likes my cup of tea?



i dunno how long i've to wait before i can fulfil some promises and wishes...

maybe its time to leave the country... the time is ticking the clock is running...

i should disappear for awhile and take time to chill out on my own...away from every single thing
sounds like a good plan =p

"lets drift!"



can i race one of these days? my desire to speed is getting insatiable...

the need for speed is so intense i'm nearly at my end wits! argh its killing me!

well everyone dun fret...firstly i won't get killed...coz i dun drive... coz i dun have a car to do that

secondly... i drive safely... i only need to speed without any cars nor any rules around... sounds like sepang race course

thirdly... i'm more interested in the skills of driving... the need for speed is just really a desire to let it all out... just like letting steam out when you're frustrated =)

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on a side note... this time nothing is holding me back... i've emerge from the nutshell and ready to get going

had a nice lunch with some one special today and indeed it was fun... how i wish i could have lunch everyday with that some one special =) though the pesky thought of having lunch at a crowded food court during office lunch time hours must be torrid

"Rice Bowl Journals"

TO BE OR NOT TO BE PART OF IT?



ok my dear fellow bloggers and readers...now its the time to vote!

need your help for this to sort of cement my decision...

should i join rice bowl journal? and eventually make this blog a world class one? =p

got more things coming up my sleeves soon... so please please leave a clue and not a tag on the tagboard, to cast your vote... will calculate the votes on SUNDAY 28th AUG

thank you everyone =)

"hiding"

i'm hiding from the rain and smog...
just looking at an empty street...
trying to forget my worries...
and yet listening to my very own heartbeats

time for a journey into an unknown world
a world that seem so real but mysteries abound
a world so sacred yet underground

"signed, sealed, delivered"

signed, sealed, delivered and i'm yours...

sounds cool...can i be like that?

but if it doesn't sound cool, bleh its more like mail order groom...hahaha

ok i'm talking crapz here...well its a monday and there's nothing better than a monday blues =p

"semi-retiry?"

what if i could retired comfortably today? i think i will semi retire only...

oh boy .... hahaha

"moments"

lots of great moments coming right up on the blog... mostly special moments in my uni life...



lol...when we took this pic, we almost laughed our heads off, coz it was like an toyota car advert...hahaha



painted this in charcoal tone with photoshop last time round... great to have all of us housemates together =)



well the family portrait of west 49....nuth said =p



some posers! argh why we so leng zai! haha =p ok just kidding



my very first graduation photo take and boy its alot of us together =)



some photogenic moments...and this is one of my fav pics =)

"memories"

found some old pics... haha feels funny to look at them again...but yea its the best memories...



this is one taken during one of the dinner & dance ball



trying to do yoga with strong winds blowing



this is the aftermath...the wind won



here we go again trying our best



i guess we finally gave up and let the wind blow our hairs back =P

"today"

well today i'm slacking at home. today i did nothing but slouching on my old deskchair, swirling around and around and around and around...

facing this computer of mine for almost 8 hours straight since morning...typing, chatting and playing games...i've got nothing to do....

well there is something to it all... i've finally spent some time alone to chill out at home... hahahaha

"angels and demons"

i'm caught between them... and yes i know we are all told to worship the angels and cast away the demons...

but somehow or rather i'm torn between the two... can i make special request? both also dun listen? hahahaha

oh wellz....

"lost in neverland"

i'm pretty much lost in neverland...

where am i headed? north? south? east or west? how about central?

i just need one thing that has eluded me since ...

where are you? i need you to come back and find me. the inspiration and strength you give.

"holz"

time to plan for my well deserved holiday...preparations all set... just a feel more details and i'm ready to ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY...

just alittle more time on the things i need to do, to finish up, to accomplish and i'm ready to head off... well during that time most likely blogging will be slightly on the slackish side...haha

oh wellz...
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i'm a little bit confused at the moment over certain issues..racking my brains about it...but alas the lazy grey matter in there dun seem to have any clue either.

"it is time"

lies undone a plot unseen
the dollar to haste a sign of days
anger alas takes revenge
your downfall will suffice

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went to the library today, read a couple of books along the way...as in glance thru...
didnt get the books i wanted...was really disappointed but then again i can wait...

realise hatred is a very good spark for revenge...it is the core of undoing the goodness... the rage and powerful anger is undeniably tempting, the lure of insanity is just round that corner.

"the code"

crytology to symbology, history to religion, it all in some sense link to each other...

somehow my own existence is very much challenged, after all these time of praise and worship and mutual research on almost every single drop of history towards religion, this one book by Dan Brown strikes me most, "The Da Vinci Code". revives my dedicated interest to my own religion. not that i want to glorify the fiction in it, but rather use this chance and understand better the whole situation.

pagan practises vs religious practises, it all don't make sense to me really at this juncture of my life...almost invisible to our own biased eyes, they are all practically the same. they all serve one purpose.

unknown to me and probably to majority of the world, do they still exist the few good or bad women and men, whom have sworn in secrecy to protect the long forgotten, undeniable truth and unexplainable history behind everything?

i have long heard about these "noble" secret societies, understandbly a few existent ones like the masons and the long beards. what secrets lies within their intimate and ultra elitist groups?

now it seems my trip out of this country will be perked up by these thoughts. will i ever get a chance to see the vatican vault, where is rumoured, to have kept the most insanely secrets of the world? the original bible is it really the whole truth to the history of that time?

its not a challenge to undermine a religion i have followed closely with my heart...but i will expect more from it to be explained in due course...

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inexplicably a different light of thought i might say, about the way we all look into our lives... so which legends, myths, history, folklores, heresays and what nots do we actually follow closely... are we misguided? are we biased? a point of focus i presume not only to accentuate the already lively and rich human life but to give meaning to the species, human.

personally i feel no matter how much everyone tries to explain, to challenge and to even refute and rebut, it all goes with the flow of life... i guess its part of human nature.

"drained"

did a major revamp of my ol'room, like shifting the furnitures and clearing the table and relocation of some stuff...

not bad...now it seems to have more spacious feeling to it already. now lets see one more thing to do and i'm ready to upgrade my bed from a single to a kings! hahahaha its call get new furniture =P

well there are somethings that have to go first before the new ones come in...so i guess time will tell what design will my new bed be... =P

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pressures of life is really interesting...it can bring you down or lift you higher...

myself at this moment...diplomatically avoiding all conflicts and arising ones...why am i the only one getting shot! crappy feeling.... =(

well i'm just biding my time...you all just wait...i shall rise up from this and prove my worth

"finally"

ok i finally had time to really update the blog... added a few missing blogsites

haha paiseh for the delay =)

well had some interesting news from friends back in gippy...ITS SNOWING!

well its really tempting to fly back now and take a look at it...but oh wellz...not say i never see snow before XD

but then again, its the company and the memories that really makes it worth while to just go back one more time...ok wait a min...maybe not just once but many one more time after... XD

"singapura"

40 years liaoz...haha

now i've got one more wish...to live long enough to see it turn 100!

hahaha now thats a great birthday party wish =)

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well life ain't that rosy and cheeky at the moment.
struggling to keep somethings in position and in check.

wish someone was here right now...haha can bite you back if you did bite me =)

kinda feel funny as to how am i suppose to portray myself to others...
must i be that person who really looks and play the part of being matured and all growned up?
why then people always think that i'm really a dumb person? never write me off, coz i guess i prefer to play the dark horse and only letting my achievements and failures tell my story.

i'm glad somethings work out fine eventually eventhough i've left that place already. not just a sense of satisfaction but more importantly i gave my very best till the end. where i left off and who had picked it up doesn't really matter. i guess i must admit to some extent i was pissed off back then. but now i realised that it was just foolish to quarrel over it. how do we ever gauge the past with the present? no we cannot, its 2 totally different situation.

well it feels alot better now that i've express my thoughts here. =)

"leopard can't change its spots"

really pissed off with someone i knew back then, this is totally bullshit i tell you. really disappointed and totally disgusted at the way things are being handled!

won't even say that person's name, but hey i'm glad we are both distant and not related no more, even as friends...

goodness me, and i thought time would make us all grow up and matured in handling situations...but time and time again you've proven me wrong. well you are out of my circle and out of my life...good bye...

"...spoilt for choice"

maybe finding that someone ain't the right choice of action...maybe i should wait and let it come naturally?

sometimes its hard to gauge between being involved and not involved... so am i in or out?

"blindness"

well not too sure if anyone noticed that those who are blind are really people we can look up to for inspiration... its amazing to see the will and determination beyond the handicap they have...

you've gotta look really harder if you have not noticed. imagine a world in which you can never see colours nor see the exact shape. imagine a world in which you can only hear and touch...

i can imagine myself in that world...can you?
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had to get myself a new printer for work and studies...really the old one went bonkus 3 years ago...

so oh well its time to get one that is capable to do all the handy work around...so its finally here and worth the money and wait after all... =)

"old times"

just went through some of the old pictures i had...

miss my friends from the time i spent whilst in uni...

hope you guys are all well and doing fine. =)

well if you do come to my blog, do leave me a message =)

"naruto"

fantasy world of ninjas and what nots... really cool... love the plot...nicely interwoven storyline...
reading the manga and watching the anime at the same time.

well my favourite characters are well...naru shikamaru...hahaha kinda lazy like him and those kind of "bo chup" attitude until it calls for...

"tooth fairy"

man...the tooth fairy came and gave me a splitting headache...OUCH! think the last of my wisdom tooth is out and boy it sure hurts!

oh brudder... never thought it will come out... guess it took years for my wisdom to root itself... bleh! well, will update more about it once i get back from the dentist for the checks...